In March 2014, I completed my Yoga TTC (Teacher Training Course). At the time, when I saw the other students easily coming up into the Sirsasana (the headstand), I could only dream of the day when I would confidently allow my legs to go up into the air. The fear led to my falling down every time I tried to come up. By the end of the intensive 200 hours training; I was still far from having reached those heights and was pretty wobbly in my attempts. As I mentioned in the blog Prisoners of our Thoughts after many patient attempts, I finally rose to the challenge by cultivating positive thoughts. Today, a little over 2 years later, I am able to hold the pose for at least 3 minutes and variations are slowly becoming more comfortable. So comfortable, that I have started slowly coming into the preparation steps to get into the Scorpion. In 2014, I could have never even imagined that my mind, let alone my body would allow me to get into such a pose. As I participated in the May 2016 TTC yoga classes – the instructor MahaShakti – she deserves the credit – pulled me to my limits and beyond. She literally stretched my body and as a consequence my mind to the vast possibilities within my existence. Today, I found myself with my legs behind my head (with assistance) – my legs behind my head!!! I can only laugh because it just seemed impossible for my body to bend in ways that it is now able to bend.
When I think back about who I was 2 years ago, I can truly grasp the magic of determination and dedication. In January 2014, I arrived at the Ashram looking for answers to bring meaning to my existence. I left a job I loved because the idea of falling into a 9-5 routine until retirement was just not that appealing to me. I thought to myself, there must be more to life than this! So, I went off on an adventure choosing to only be guided by my heart, for a year. The key moments from the last 2 years are summed up by the way in which I now choose to live my life. I have come to realize that, it is true, nothing is impossible. I’ve also realized that when I have truly followed my heart, doors have opened up and the force has guided me clearly. Do not get me wrong, there are still moments when I second guess my heart, I still have bad days and there is still so much more to learn about life, love and happiness. However, one thing I do embrace about this whole experience as I prepare myself to leave the Ashram again … is that I set the limits, not the sky nor the environment. Where there is a will, there is a way. Nothing is impossible applies to all of us, not just yogis.